You know you’re fucked when you look at their face and see an image of perfection,
You know you’re fucked when you’re up all night with them in mind,
You know you’re fucked when your days are hard to get through without them,
You know you’re fucked when you start to realize everything is temporary,
I know I’m fucked because as I write this I’m losing my composure,
I know I’m fucked because you’ve stopped calling,
I know I’m fucked because you’re not looking at me the same anymore,
I know I’m fucked because I’m losing you,
I know I’m fucked because the drugs aren’t helping anymore,
Im so fucked.
And if you call me at 4 am, too sad to even say hello, I will listen to your silence until you fall asleep. If you need to cry I will not wipe your tears away because you are only human and sometimes tears are as close to laughter as you can get and that’s okay. If you get sleepy I will let you drool on my arm and I won’t laugh at you if you snore too loud. If you need to yell so hard that your voice cracks and your knees fail I will hold you up and yell with you. If you get so angry you punch your hands red I will ice your knuckles and tell you that wounds heal both inside and out, and just like the cold that is harsh and burning, I will always be the warmth to soothe you and make you feel better. I will love you.
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